Like everyone else, my life isn’t exactly all sunshine and roses. I don’t know anyone who doesn’t wish some part of their life was different.
Rather recently, I reached a not-so-healthy place in my emotional life. So much so, that I felt like I was having a nervous break down of sorts. While not contemplating ending it all, still, it was quite possible that I had reached my proverbial breaking point.
My level of anxiety was through the roof. At night, while trying to wind down before drifting off into peaceful slumber, I noticed that I was wringing my hands without realizing at first that I was doing it. I had never done this before. What was happening?
My patience was almost non-existent, not that it’s ever been perfect by any means, but nevertheless it was quite thin. My emotions were on high alert; I could burst into tears at almost any moment, whether from anger, frustration, or shear distress over something I could not identify.
What was going on?
I have a bad habit of trying to resolve my problems on my own, feeling like a weak loser if I asked for help, while reasoning in my mind that I didn’t want to burden anyone with my problems because they had their own demons to fight. This is a habit with potentially detrimental results. It’s like pressure building up inside a pressure cooker that isn’t sealed properly. Once that pressure hits a certain level, she blows!
This, my friends, is not a healthy way to think.
If we were all totally self sufficient, we wouldn’t need each other, and if we didn’t need each other, why were we put on this earth? For what purpose? We are here to be a blessing, a help, to one another according to God’s divine will. At least, that’s what I believe.
So, I finally reached out.
And I am SO glad I did.
I wasn’t judged. I wasn’t belittled. I wasn’t made to feel like a loser or a spoiled brat.
In contrast, I received a beautiful, powerful blessing that left me feeling empowered, renewed, and energized. As a member of the Mormon faith, I believe that true blessings can only be administered by those given authority to do so by the Holy One Himself. Because of the immediate difference in my attitude and outlook, I can testify to the validity and divinity of this belief.
I don’t know what your beliefs are, but, know that you are not alone if you feel you have reached the point of no return in frustration or defeat.
There is hope.
Take the time to step back from the situation, assess your options, seek divine help if that is your belief, or seek help from a professional. Then walk forward on your path to better emotional health. Don’t expect perfection because that’s not real life, but do expect to reach a more positive frame of mind and healthier, happier outlook. We all live with trials and challenges, that’s just life. Think of your conquest over adversity as an exercise in the evolution of you.
I’ll keep you posted on my progress….
born a WORDSMITH 